So the Permanent Roommate and I discussed over the course of many months the idea of taking a leap of faith. What does this look like?
To be honest, it looked like flailing, choking on water, and nearly drowning… multiple times.
A few months ago, the PR and I heard a gentle whisper in our hearts- it’s time to follow, will you?
I felt like Peter in the boat. Okay but really- this is by far one of the weirdest stories I have ever read in the bible. I think about it like this: The waves are crashing all around me, the boat is nearly capsizing, and all of a sudden some figure is standing out on the water. (*Disclaimer: this part totally isn’t in the bible, I just read it like this*) All of a sudden aforementioned figure is calling out to me and he basically asks who will trust him enough to come out and stand on the water with him. I think I am so cool, and I quickly raise my hand and I am all “Yo, Jesus, I know its you! Can I come out there with you? (because you know- I am so smart and totally can do this… even though its water I’m talking about walking on.) And Jesus says: “Come.” Me: LOL JK JK JK I totally am kidding. I can’t walk on water. Jesus: *raises an eyebrow* Me: no seriously man. I cant walk on water. I can only tread water for 20 minutes. I will straight up die. Jesus: “do you trust me?” Me: “ummmm. NO.”
You know the rest of the story.
So after I flailed for a while I realized that I just had to say yes. I will go Lord, where You lead me. And as soon as I said that, everything began to fall into place. The PR and I found a place to live, he found an incredible job, and I gained a whole lot of packing and frantically running around.
But it has been so worth it. Even though the last three weeks have seen me more stressed than any finals week ever saw me, coffee, scrubs, messy bun and all, I wouldn’t trade any of it. Most of the time, God calls me to an uncomfortable reality, and invites me to trust Him. Most of the time, I don’t want to leave where I am, and tell Him “maybe later.” But this time was different. I said YES.
Now the struggle is to say yes each and every day. I don’t know what that looks like. But I am trying. I’ll let you know how its going next week!
*PS pictured above is my new doormat and I am super excited about it and wanted to share it with you all.